LOVE, LIFE & POETRY

Beginnings

I struggle with beginnings.

Scared to roll out of bed

or even put my feet down,

I lay facing the bleached ceiling.

Pondering on my other struggles -

I struggle with perception.

Subtle ideas defining reality

and their unknown origin.

For hard as I try, my perception

of perception, is merely my perception

I struggle with colours,

much like I struggle with decisions

and my ambivalence leaves me stuck.

Abandoned by a lethargy in indecision,

neither black nor white, so I pick gray.

My favorite colour, My safe space.

I struggle with emotions.

Exhausted as I sit in the backseat,

along for a rough drive-through.

Too many times, in my keke napep,

I bump into trailer drivers

who leave me crushed, bleeding and broken.

I struggle with the littlest things.

Stuck wondering if a smile was real,

if the love was ever deep,

do the stars shine for me?

Will anyone remember that I lived?

I struggle with beginnings.

Scared to roll out of bed

or even put my feet down,

I lay facing the bleached ceiling.

Pondering on my other struggles -

I struggle with struggling

and the things I should get over.

For, while I wish I would just be done,

moving on, into the day ahead,

I lay facing the bleached ceiling.

Pondering, on my other struggles.

Victory Okoyomoh, pen name - Victory Wrights is an Optometry Student at the University of Benin. A writer,  both prose and poetry, his works have been published in some anthologies and other websites.  He also run an instagram poetry account - @victory_wrights 

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